It matters.

Bismillah.

I'm not used to talk about serious stuff. But idk, today it just felt like it.

Yesterday, the world (at least the k-pop world) were shocked by the death of a Korean singer and actress, who was also a former member of an idol group, Sulli. Her manager found her dead in her house in the evening, and the police confirmed that the cause of death was suicide.

I know nothing about her, to be honest. I might have seen her on screen, but yet it might be just a split of moment since I'm not really into girls group. However, I read few tweets and articles that appeared on my Twitter timeline yesterday so I'm aware that she was harassed by hate comments by the knetz especially, just because she was sort of bubbly and didn't live up to the knetz beauty standards.

She's bullied online and suffered from severe depression.

I saw her photos for the first time yesterday, and she was super pretty. And smiles brightly too. I'm not a fan of her, but I'm sad that she suffered so much that she decided to end her suffering by her own.

Last two years, when I was studying in my desk, my room mates came to me in shock and said that a kpop idol passed away. I was somehow dumbfounded because I was more into k-variety instead of k-pop. Then I knew that Jonghyun from SHINEE died. 

He also committed suicide.

I'm not sure why he decided to do that, as far as I know he was a good guy. I never knew if he were harassed by malicious comments like Sulli, but he's probably suffering inside. Probably from the pressure from work and being a public figure as well.

I just watched My Ugly Duckling and Heechul (a member of Super Junior) said that he would suggest his future kid to be a semi-celebrity if the kid really wanted to. He wouldn't recommend the kid to be celebrity because the celebrity world are not for everyone. Being a celebrity is hard. Normal people like us wouldn't understand.

Imagine our actions being watched every time we go out to public. Imagine people being nosy because you accidentally make a mistake. Imagine being told how to act just because the fans wanted you to act that way.

Imagine being judged for every humane things that you do.

Ah, I'm overwhelmed already.

Therefore, I'm here to give some whole-ass scolding to people who thought mental illness is a joke.

Mental illness is not a joke. 

Be careful with what we say, it might hurt someone inside. You might see one smiling brightly outside, but you never know what happens inside. Malicious and hate comments are absurd. Give constructive criticism instead. Do it with manner. Stop telling people to live up your ridiculous standards when you yourself couldn't live up your own standards.

Suicide cases in Malaysia are not that rare yet not that common, but there are people with mental health issues out there. Be emphatic wherever we go. Be polite. Insulting and dissing was never the right way to correct behavior yet it made people worse.

Joker is trending nowadays. They say that "orang jahat ialah orang baik yang tersakiti," which is true to certain point. Many people kept on bashing on the statement that the past shouldn't be an excuse  for people to do bad stuff and I do agree.

But yet, it's not even a sin for us to be emphatic to them. Instead of justifying their wrong doings, approach them with manners and say politely that they did wrong. Bashing and hate-commenting was never the right answer.

Just be kind. And understanding. 

And they really need our support to heal.

Mental illness is really a sensitive topic in Malaysia. Some Malaysian just couldn't understand why would someone get super sad and depressed when we have God. Well, news flash, humans have feelings. Depression is a human emotions, it gets overwhelming at certain point. They could control their emotions by praying and dedicating their time to God, but yet they couldn't get rid of the emotions.

It must be super hard to live if one had started to think that suicide is the final option to end those overwhelming emotions.

I'ts just complicated. I've never been in their shoes so I couldn't describe the feelings truly. I couldn't understand them but yet I think, just being kind is enough, I guess.

Be kind, guys.

Be kind.

To all who's suffering, you guys matter. You are worth it.

We love you.