Life : Past and Present.

Bismillah.

Last night, aku jumpa satu album gambar. Dalam album tu, penuh gambar aku and bro masa kecik. And I always love to remember my childhood memories, because I was so cute that time (no lies here) and how happy am I when I was a kid.

Aku selalu bawa satu album ni yang aku letak segala jenis gambar aku masa kecik dalam tu. I always put it in my bag, so I can always look at it whenever I want.

Kadang-kadang, aku rasa menyampah dengan diri sendiri sebab aku macam tak boleh nak move on from my past.

Satu sebab kenapa aku suka usha gambar aku masa kecil adalah kerana, zaman tu adalah zaman yang sangat menyeronokkan tanpa ada tekanan dan tanggungjawab yang perlu difikirkan.

Bayangkan, semua perkara masa tu semuanya seronok. Kerja kita masa tu is only main, main dan main.

Aku selalu throwback semula, how everyone always treat me nice, how my parents always care me much, how my brother was such a cute little boy with cheeky face. Everything was such a heaven that time.

When I grown up, I realize that life is not as heaven as the past. Lebih banyak tanggungjawab aku kena pikul. As a daughter, as a sister, as a student. And that make me stress. A lot.

Tu belum kira manusia-manusia pendengki haih. Life is so exhausting yea. Especially bila dah masuk sekolah menengah. Much work to do. Semuanya makes me jadi hantu tidur bila dalam kelas. 

Dan result aku tentunya tak memberangsangkan.

How I wish to have my childhood life again.

Tapi aku tahu semua tu mustahil. 

Dalam album yang aku simpan dalam bag tu, ada satu gambar tu. Gambar yang menunjukkan aku dalam kereta, di tempat duduk belakang, berbaju kurung, tersenyum comel. Senyuman yang sangat ikhlas, yang sebenarnya dah lama aku tak mampu ukirkan.

There's a note I wrote behind the photo.

"Whatever happen to you, always smile just like you always did before. Never let the smile dissapear... :)" -rizz

These words somehow makes strong and still standing in this life.

Bye. Assalamualaikum peeps.