Happy (not so) New Year!

Bismillah.

Happy new year to all, although it's like March already but who cares right. It's at least still the first quarter of the year.*shameless*

I was supposed to write my Bahasa Melayu essay, in which you guys might wandering why the hell am I writing in Malay; it's for an assignment, but yeah, things just didn't go so well. Me, a whole ass Malay, whose first language is Bahasa Melayu, is having a hard time writing in Malay. It's really ridiculous considering how I was one of the best Bahasa Melayu student back in high school and I couldn't even write a goddamn ucapan perasmian before doubting my Malay sentences every time.

I feel bad that my Bahasa Melayu has gone worse, but being an English major just shifted my reading habits into more English materials. I was kinda desperate to improve my English skills, because it just seems ironic for English majors to not excels in the language, so I started to watch more English movies, series and read more books, poetry, journal article and stuffs. It's pretty much business-based relationship considering I didn't really read them that often but yeah yougetmypoint.

I haven't updated my blog for months and I started the new post with me rambling about my now worsen-Bahasa Melayu. Great.

By the way, nothing much to update. I am still writing, no worries, most of them are poems because I now realized that I didn't have ample time to write and finish a story so poems are definitely the best resort to keep the gear running. I also started to write prose, both in Bahasa Melayu and English (see i actually have effort to improve my bm) because prose is also short and easy.

I'm not thinking of updating those works just yet, because I'm kinda reserving them for the best but yeah, might as well change my mind later.

Actually, in December, I tried to write a post on my family day which I thought it'd be worth writing about. I had the draft in my archive but you could probably see by now considering every factors you see in me, how the drafted post will forever be drafted. *cues sad violin*

And yes! I am in my fourth semester now, half-way to the scroll *cries in silence*. I'm having a hard time with few core courses subjects because my brain cells just couldn't process them but yeah I'm trying. Just this evening I got called out in class to answer a question and guess who's not focusing? Yes bih, it's me.

Thank god, another student saved me, she answered the question on behalf on me so I was saved but definitely no more sneaking onto phone while in class after this I swear to god.

Oh yeah, also it's official that my siblings has all graduated high school! My brother has just gotten his SPM results last week and it was a good result. Now, we're all legally adults, stepping into the freakish, horrible adulthood with so much uncertainty but I guess we'll manage. Also, happy birthday to us! Actually my bro and mine were in January but again, wHo cArES?

Before this rambling starting to become nonsense every seconds it gets, I guess I'll just stop here. Have a nice year guys. 

Oh also, please be healthy, Covid19 is eyeing us from everywhere.

See ya.