Personalities

Bismillah.

Hey. How are you guys? It's been a while kan. Hahaha.

I'm now in my third semester, it was only a week since I enrolled into the new sem. The first week had been nice to me, although there's few assignments and reading to be done.

I was just procrastinating my journal articles reading, which is super boring, that I decided to finally update my web-combed blog.

Just now, I went to pick up my food, which I ordered on Whatsapp because my new room is super far from the cafe. The runner is a friend of mine, and when I saw her, I naturally showed cute goofy acts to greet her.

*cue enthusiastic waving and cute huge smiles*

just add more goof in this and you'll get the right move

Then I realized, "Duh, you didn't do that to everyone."

Fair enough.

I, myself, have a complex personality, which I tend to change my attitude according to the people surrounding. I'm more like the person who tried to complete the surrounding, so that there wouldn't be something missing.

For example, my closest friends are super extroverted but yet, they have different personality.

S is much super extroverted, like she can ease the environment wherever she goes. She hated awkwardness, like a lot, that she would get super anxious if she got into those kind situation. She is also into skin ship, just like me. And she loves attention.

I really love hugging and holding hands (as mutual friends obviously) and I don't really mind if the other person is okay with it (honestly the first time I met her, she proceeded hugging me first before asking my name, which was shocking and heart-warming at the same time.) S talks super a lot, and when we conversed she would drift away from the initial topic we've been talking about. And being the best talker, she's unfortunately not the best listener. 

I still love her nonetheless.

Z is the epitome of friendliness, she can make friends with literally almost everyone she met. It's crazy how many people she greeted when we walked together, and I don't even know them. If she entered a class full of strangers, in a vast second, she's already friends with the girl besides her. I'm the exact opposite of her. I don't go around making friends with strangers in class. I don't bother knowing their names, even if they were sitting besides me for so long. 

Z literally hates silence, she didn't hate awkwardness. She didn't talk a lot, she gave a lot of space for the other person to talk, causing me the one to be the one who talks a lot. To call her the best listener was not that right either, because maybe it's just me, but she's not really listening actually hahahaha.

Back to acting differently with people, I acted different with both of them. Not really different, but there are things I do with S that I don't do with Z.

First of all, S is warm. I love her warmhearted energy that I felt so comfortable being around her. She talks a lot, which was tiring to hear for me, but she can also embrace comfortable silence. I can hug her all I want, whenever I want, and she wouldn't mind. I tend to be much more soft around her, because I felt super comfortable, and she's not judging and all.

Sometimes when I met her, I would just randomly hug her as a greeting.

i love hugs

She's sassy too, which I could freely throw my sass into her face and not taking it to heart. I'm less dictatorial with her, but yet become much more like a parent because of her nature.

Z is much more tense in nature, although that she's friendly. She is naturally judgmental, that couldn't be help. That somehow causes me to be more aware of her in the beginning, although now it had been lessen a bit. She's clingy and corny as well, which I would say is the worst combination ever (to me). She speaks things like "aloh rindunya tak jumpa satu hari" which was like the typical corny drama melayu lines on tv, that made me cringe so hard.

I couldn't be soft and cute to her, because she would always find it cringy, just like how I find her cringy HAHAHA the irony.

us when we find one another cringy

Z didn't really like skin ship, although she often likes to cling on to my arms while walking. I dislike that a bit, and often refuse because I felt like a boyfriend instead of a friend lol. Which brings me to the next point, I tend to be much more dictatorial with Z.

Honestly, these little things that people don't realize in life made me so into personalities types.

I was an avid reader of human personality types. Although some people call them utter BS, I find them super interesting and accurate. Humans are indeed different and it's their jobs to understand one another to avoid misunderstanding.

Plus, these personality types were researched because there's miscommunication among humans in the first place, aren't they?

Honestly, I've never understand myself that much until I met these personalities research. I now understand the inner core of myself and how I can improve into someone better?

I made my friends answered the personality test, just because. I now understand their core, if not I wouldn't be able to write such long ass description about them. Screw that, I'm also able to understand my mom better now.

Not saying that everyone need to dive into those 16 personality types, but if you want to understand people better, do use this platform. Don't trust them blindly though, just remember that humans can always change, and you can always improve yourself into someone better.

My message is for people to try and understand people better, so that you had a blast in life. Humans live together, and we could only understand each other, so why don't we do that?

There goes my moral. Hahaga.

I'm ending this abruptly because when I started writing this, I didn't know how it would end, honestly.

Signing off, bye.